Weird dayssss..

30th of September 2010

Well well..
Nowadays I felt that I always don't wanna sleep at night..
Even I am tired..
Emo..
Happy..
I mean.. No matter what mood I am having..
This is soooo weird..
Even the sun rised..
It just like..
Normal.. I didn't feel like..
HOLY SHIT!! The sun rised!! I should go to bed now..
NO.. Why.. lolx..
Weird..
If I managed to control myself..
Thats will be GREAT!
NO.. Perfect!
My mom can't even control me..
I am really a piece of shit.. Oh man..
Nooo.. A dozen of shit lolx..
And also..
I can't remember much things..
when its noon.. I tried to think about what I did just now(midnight, morning)
But ends up without a thing in my mind..
HOly dozensss of shit!~
Toooooooo weird..
I hope I can just kick off this stupid habit of not sleeping.. damn..

First year semester 2

29th of September 2010 2.19am

After having 3 nights at my college life..
I found out there's nothing special..
Um, actually there was some weird feeling..
Just..
Some laughs.. some smiles.. some jokess.. some storys..
were missing..
But life goes on, I must get use on it then..

Sem two is actually .. um..
Good and bad? hahax..
Good
=> only study from Monday to Thursday..
So, I can go back to my hometown every Thursday's night
And, everyday my classes ended before 5.30pm like that..
so, I can go for football every evening HUhuuhu
Bad?
=> Thursday is full of shit that I have 4 classes for that day, from 8am to 5.30pm
If there's 4 presentation on that day..
I can be.. DEAD lolx..

Time is faster than lightning bolt ?

26/9/2010 6.11am


3 weeks of time just passed like this..
Damn.. I am going back to my college tomorrow(Kuala Lumpur)
Going to start sem2 for the next Monday..
I felt nervous and worries on my sem2..
I don't know why...
Maybe because a lot of things that I do on sem 1 shall not be repeated on sem2..
Examples?
um.. before going to football.. before going to sleep.. or before doing something important or special..hehex..
So it is very stranger to me..
And.. What am I going to do on sem 2 was..
To show those girls in the hostel something and make then never say "guy's room is just same as like in a hell"
I will keep my room clean and clear.. hahax..
I knew I can handle all the things by myself..
Because I am Chin Jun Yeng haahx..(My mom can't even handle me, how can I handle them myself? Shiit =x)
Am I ready for my sem 2???
Yea! I suree ee do..
I downloaded 137 movies.. HAHAHAX..
I was mad.. But every sem was a war..



Well well well..
I enjoyed my 3 weeks of time at my hometown nicely..
I met a lot of my friends.. But mostly I met my football friends..
Because..
NO FOOTBALL NO LIFE hahax xP
In 3 weeks of time.. I just ate fried chicken once that cooked by my mom..
And she went to China for my last week at my hometown.. Thats soo suck..
In 3 weeks of time..
I had forgotten a lot of things..
Why? Um, because of late sleep ? Late sleep may cause you having memories lost..
Damn.. thats suck..
When my friends talking about something past.. I was like..
Keep thinking and thinking..
But I still can't remember a thing.. DAMn..
In 3 weeks of time..
I started to play back "dota" and "runescape"
And guys.. Please don't try them..
These are the lifeless game ever..
Once you starts to play.. You need to play atleast an hour only you willing to STOP..
Hahax.. shit games..
So, what will I miss?
I'll miss my bed.. my carss.. my mom(more fried chicken pleaseee).. my younger bro(all the best for you pmr..).. my "copy"(my dog).. my desktop.. my toilet.. football field.. TC(beach).. Burgersss(saffron)... friendssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss...
I guess thats all..
Since I am having memories lost..
I can't think nicely for this blog..
ahhahax..
I apologize for that =x

Brand new me?

I yahx..
I guess I am gonna change my attitude..
My attitude sometime is quite fucked up..
All because of my mouth..
I think I'll go for a polite mode..
Hope that it will be a better choice..


And I think I gonna change to a less active guy..
Since I feels that I talked too much..
Making people got annoyed..
But this case happens less..
Because I can cocky with almost all the girls and boys..
So,
I just hope my plan success..
So that I don't really need to change so much..

24th of September 2010

Time.. 1.11pm..
Um, now my feeling is totally downed..
Just took my lunch,
and things happened..
I wish I can talk to someone..
That really care about me..
That can talk about everything without feeling shameful or shy or others(negative)..
That really important to me..
That I really trust ..
But so far, I only found ONE..
And.. I just can't.. Argh..
Never mind..
Just .. too complicated..
Its about my dad,
And I can almost got hit
and die? since he was so mean-ed..
Life suck..
But I will never gave up to become a better man.. dad and.. husband..

Being a bad man ?

All the girls always saying that "all the man are bad and there ain't any good man in the world !"
Well , no..
There's some good man..
Just that they have no fate/destiny to meet any of them..
However,
Even if they met any of them and have a very good love relationship
The girl found out that there's a problem..
"what problem?"
A "guilty" feeling..
She will feel sorry to him..
She will feel that she hurt him a lots..
She will feel that she never know how to appreciate love..
Then, what to do?
Stop the relationship..
Cause it may stop feeling sorry to him..
or stop feeling that she hurting him..


So..
Um, being a good man is not the best as u think.. U still can't what u wanted..
How about being a bad man?
maybe it's better ..
Since being a good man can't really get loved..
And being a bad man,
I guess the girl will never feels
Guilty..
Just a word, "guilty"
Can make a big different..
I always wondering how wonderful the love and world would be if "guilty" will never exist...

21st of September 2010

Well,

For 21st of Sept's night,

It was my first time that I slept with airconded and a dark room for the 3 weeks time at my hometown!

"Huh? what u mean?"

Um, I went to bed at 5am(22nd) so, the sun still haven't rise and..

I only will switch on the air cond to sleep if the sun not yet rise..

Wow?

I guess I am back to business! The real life

However!

After I woke up, around 1 or 2pm.. I felt that I am extremely tired..

I don't know why, but I believe that soon I'll be okay with it..

Still blur with this blog huh?

Ok, lets just straight to the point

The conclusion was..

I

Am

On

My

Way

Back
To

Me