Chin Jun Yeng

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‎9, MU huge fans, and always see u post status with loads of loads of rudeeeeee words, bahahaha. Tall and good looking hakka guy, hmm, and you're lou ye too, always show a pity face. LOL, 20 is coming too =xxxx

2
‎9 ;
My favourite number ! HEY , good afternoon , principal chin . :) Hows ur *F2* goin on ? Drive me alright! Don't forget , i'm still waiting ! Yeah , first time i met you , you've awesome photos , u're gorgeous :D I didn't told you that before , sorry ! And next is , you're Manchester United biggest fans , that made me feel impress ! And , you're way awesome , we United okay! ♥

3
shitty miss. 9 xD
shui zai.. dun betray ur mummy liao lar -_-
u also very gan xiu gek.. if dun have u.. then not funny liao cuz u r clown mar rite?!
oi.. i drive 40 in fast lane... wahhaaa noobbbbbbbbb!

4
‎9 U????? Kawan banyak, like to talk cock. quite handsome but if i thin i more handsome. LOLOL~ and dun always zat me can ah??? XD

5
‎9 sakai!!! haha... sentiasa itulah dia!!! haha... love to hang out with u.. thnx for acc me watch movie whn the sum1 cant acc me.. and whn u wan treat me mcd lagi?? i treat u movie lor.. hiak hiak!!ur a funny and weird person.. very actoristic.. lolx..u n bro r sky and land.. big diff.. summore apa lagi?? duno leh.. malas type dah.. haha!!! anyway hope to go out with u again soon u sakai!!

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to 9:
哈哈...以前我们可以玩到很癫的...但之后你上高班...加上你有另外一斑朋友...我也有另外一斑朋友...我们的联系越来越少了...但我没忘记你...之前到现在...你依然还这么废,这么搞笑的...所以我很喜欢和你一起的...我会很开心...哈哈...可能你废的原因吧...还有以前''客家客家''的...我视你为兄弟...你可是个可以深交的朋友...很怀念我们一起读书的时候...你上来读书...我也想过找你出来喝茶什么的...有节目什么的...但大家都是路痴...说了那里又不知道那里...所以算咯...XP
看有机会没有...一起喝茶...看球...打球也可以的...=]

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‎9
thought u didn't play tis type of staff de? hehe XD
i noe u since i'm form 1, in the tuition center with wei quan.. tat time always bully me 1, till the last day we tuition 2gether is a day when form 5.. u'r very crazy enough to make ur friends happy, lolz, sometimes i saw u acting like a child, likes the ways u consort together with ur friends ^^ good luck in ur college life ya, keep in touch too^^

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‎#9 , you such a son of bitch ! hahahah LOL joking la :P Always bully me & call me prawn girl >;( I dont scare ady okkkk ! I got antibiotic xD hahahaha Your maths is so pro la wei ! but your chinese .. Hmmm .. xD and can you walk properly ?? I dont like your walking style la HAHA wanted to tell you long time ago lols

9
Mr 9..
hey, we din talk much.. how i know you jek..
LOL~ but 1 word NOOB!!!

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‎9 ;
9 should be your football jersey number eh? lol =x
We met each other for like, twice? or once I can;t remember. Hahahha.
My sister's friend.
Munguenyeong super die heart fan! Merry*
Munguenyeong hen lenglui yi xia de lorrr. hahahhaha! :D
Happy New Year anyway! :D

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‎9...u're my cute "jie jie"...but in diff sex de la...lolx..u r super duper MU fans...everything bout MU sure u noe...then u and me have a similar thing...we're both HAKKA...lolx...u got beautiful eyes...i like ur lashes...lolx...u're funny...frenly...dunno y i just noe u la...kakazz...i think is fate rite? lolx...all the best ya!

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‎#9

First time saw you, AT SMKTP 3k5 !! HAHAHA you're botak and crazy..
can play football at class somemore, white & botak ...CUTE!!
After few months, we know each other better ...then more CRAZY!!
HAHHAHAHAHAH , CRAZY MAN UTD FAN!

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‎[9]
walao
沒想到你也會來harh XD
哈哈哈哈
中學時期的朋友
不同班 but同樣的club =D
保齡 還記得沒有 ？

印像中 你是個帥哥來的 =)
還有啊 我有幫你慶祝過生日的叻
記得沒有 ？
不記得沒關係
那個video我沒有delete過 =D

2011年
hope you all the best =)
雖然畢業了 都沒什麼聊
but you in my heart friend =)

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‎9, knows you in the field haha xD sbs inter-campus football teammate =)
friendly guy, have same characteristic, like to run around the field, breaks up opponents attack and attacks by the side xD like to play alongside you =)

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‎9
你嘛～
长不大的大哥哥～
我们第一次交谈因该是在朋友的生日会，对吗？
当时跟你还不是太熟悉，
还以为那会是最后一次跟你交谈～
可是我万万也没有想到之后你会跟我同班～
因为你的成绩好像...
之后我才发现其实你的几项科目是不错的！
有时还会羡慕你叻～
虽然你每次有时没事就zat我～
但我知道那是没有敌意的～
只是想逗大家开心～
所以我还好咯～
还有啊～
你现在身在外地（还是在国内啦～XP）～
不要学坏啊（你明白我的意思的）～
你要变～？
可以啊～
变成熟点就行了～
因为傻里傻气是你的特征～
我蛮喜欢像你这样的～
呵呵～
我还对你不太了解啦～
所以也不能对你说些什么！
不过没关系～
有机会的话，
我会尝试去了解你的～

好吧～
希望在新的一年里～
你万事都顺利吧～^^

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‎9-u are the guy who always call me milk or noob...ewww..u quite handsome but vry noisy...haha...ur nick name called jonny...Wahaha..

17
‎9...9 geng in gong gu...9 geng in kao nui...9 geng in drink n then drunk...haha...gsc zai...football kia...

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<9>
2 years as my classmate
1st impression-this guy really serious
after few months
i notice tat i was wrong
ur face tricked me >_<
ur very funny & interesting~
and not serious at all ==
a very playful boy in class~
sometimes very childish too~
not like ur age~
i like 2 call u noob
becuz u look like 1~
when we are in class
ur like a joker (not batman tat 1)
so nice 2 meet u~
kinda miss u now~
p/s: i'm not gay ok~ XD

19
‎9
first time i met u is at MM ttn... tall tall n gt a litter look like KOREA boy...
bt u too talkative... + Super Active... XDD


20
‎9 .
I hate you , when i was 14 yearsold .
u bullied me ! hng ! still remember ? feel guilty ?
hahahahaa !
I'm not a tomboy ! * yelling *
haha . but u are handsome . you speak english very well .
your house is big . your mom is cute .
haha . i appreciate the friendship between u and me .
so . dont try to forget me . okay ?
you're my friend and will be forever . :):):)

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‎9,haiz~~~you ark~~~WHY SO DARN TALL LA YOU!GET SHORTER LA!!!!hahahahahahahahahaha~~i just loving bullying you~hahahahaha~there i said it!!!~SUPER NOOB!!!!~my darling family lor~knew u ever since i got into f4~and i am glad you are family~~~~XD~~~you are so easily to bully~and lastly~STOP DRINKING TOO MUCH~okay~~hahahahaha

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‎9: lalala~dun jealous i noob than u lo~hehe.. u ar~~ dun always 隐瞒 me lo..make me sad jor 2 weeeks u know?u r my didi ar...i'm yr jiejie ar~cant gt secret geh know? so hate u ~>< yr face hor...always make me laugh de lo..so noob=x
i lazy type le la.. if u still wan know more bout u den call me ba~XD miss u~~♥

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hey 9~
In year06,my 1st expression was wow lengzai!but a bit lan zai.yet,I always curi2 gap you when u were playin basketbal.That time I think you didn't kn0w i always gap u.07,never met u at all~08?before i knew you thru xx,i felt that you're really very arrogant,ur look a,after knowing you only know you are a nice guy!a ridiculous,always carin and so on~don't 1 2 say so much le,can't finish weih!hope u all da best

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‎9..hey..hw r u ark?lk long time din c u dy..miss ur voice lah especially dis 1(you bin ark ni)..u r de most 38 pp i meet..hahax..bt bcos of dis u could owas make pp laugh..i noe u r taller den me lah..u no nid owas mention geh..hahax..ntg much to say jor..all de best 4 u lah..add oil.. =]

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‎9 my secondary classmate. An outgoing person, outspoken, friendly, cute etc. You never fail to make all of us laugh. You can be a good comedian if u want to. hahaha! ( A great friend indeed ) Happy new year! GOod luck in ur future undertakings! i left out 1 thing, u have an awesome sense of humor ! haha

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‎9.. my physic ttn buddy.. then became my mummy liao.. lol.. keep disturb me during physic.. jk jk.. haha.. have lot fun singing leehom's song.. == always claim tat he is leehom.. lol.. perasan.. thanks for being so good towards me.. always ask me not to give up:) such a caring person..

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‎9: first impression, good looking (rolls eyes :P), quiet and cool. it turns out that he is very noisy and playful. lol. and idontknowwherehegottheideafrom, he calls me mee goreng. -.- so, i call him dandelion. lol. his hair was/is like one. :P he loves futsal, he loves to play online games and he loves to hang out with friends. but it's okay coz he'll fetch. haahhahaha :P it's fun to be your friend. all the best. ;P

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9~a ppl oso call PIG~~`XD
sei ye u..write me so yong sui..hhmmm..>,<
wahahahha XDD
eii.hello....i din panic when u call me lorh..im so okay de lorh..lol..=='''
yalo..the coll is too big until wan see you oso susah..but who care to see you orh...hhmm..i oso dunwan to see you larh..wahahah XDD
and hor..ya arh..im so black last time..y?u jlous ka..??dun jlous la...u wan be black meh..later no ppl wan u thn u salahkan me lorh..lol..wahahaha XDD...
u say u scare i cmpak u,thn better dun make me angry or fat fo la..if not~~ngek ngek ngek..wahaha XDD..u will see the conclusion soon..wahahahaha XDDD
walao..y u de so long arh..my others friend oso not so long lorh..lol...>,<
so u must appriciate what i write for u tahu...wahahha XDD
erm..yalo,im not lanc lo..lol and if u wan to eat wat i cook orh..come my house plz..no delivery service...thanx XD
all the best for you too..gayao la..peng you..wahah XDD


p/s: i dunwan writre dy..too many bad things have to write botu u lorh..lol..><...
XD wahahaha XDD
is too long..cant put at status liao.XD

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9
haha,wat u wan me to describe u??hhaa,as a fren,u masih boleh tahan la..as a brother,yiks..u sucks~~hahaa,i just kidding ny lol...but i can tell u,haha..duno how to say,i pernah suka u lo...hahah,i think i so sot jor..becoz i come out all these things rite here~~but i think no ppl will noe who are u..rite??haha...thats all from me,i hope u can find ur mrs.RIGHT...and wish u all the best in the year are coming around~~

Hometown

Its morning now, 8.21am
26th of December 2010..
And I am still awake..


Well..
I am gonna take my test at 6th of January to 17th of Jan 2011..
Um..
So, I went back to my hometown to study..
This was what I planned before I went back to my hometown..
But..
What I realized was..
I am just wasting my time, my money.. At my hometown..
In my mind..
There's not even a word "STUDY"
If I keep on like this..
I guess I am gonna be a dept shit..

But,
Something in my mind right now,
Which is..
Tonight..
I'll go for a study!
I hope it will works..
No matter what! I'll make it work..
I don't want to fail my test..
Cause a lot of people will sad..
Mom.. Grandmom.. and uncle..
Just don't wanted to disappointed them..
And stop some study people who tease on me if I get bad result..

How to play football

Thursday(9/12/2010)

That day..
I went for futsal with friends at college..
Well,
The match was fun..
Cause we were all doing funny things like..
Shouting each other.."Pass lah,BODOH!!" "Bodoh!" "Gila!" "NOOB!"
And many more..

So, after the match..
We were packing to leave the court..
Before I leave,
My friend, Marcus..
He went to me and said..
"William, want me to teach you football..?"
So, I was curious so I quickly answered YES!
Know what he said..?
Ops, by the way, he's a smoker..
So, know what he said..?
"First you need to SMOKE."
I was like.. LOLX WHAT THE FUCK !!!
Then I asked him what's the second step..
He said..
"You must drink a lots, alcoholic.."
I was Laughing Out LOUD straight away!

So, if you wanna learn to play football..
Um.. You know.. you must learn this two MAIN steps!

SBS

SBS....?
SBS = School of Business Studies..
I took part for the school for inter-campus..
Well.. Pahang.. Johor.. Perak.. Penangs' TAR College were at my college(The Main TAR College, Kuala Lumpur)

I took part in football..
I gotta say..
My team seriously not so good..
Cause we called ourself "the last-minute team"
The captain only decided the teammates the day before the competition(3/12/2010)
And unluckily.. Got two good players can't attend the competition due to injury and another one was on vacation..
Well, the one who injured was the guy I wanted to play with him very much!
He's fucking strong that I must say!
He can cross a damn long ball with both legs! man.. thats sicked !
If he's playing, I gonna be his partner in the mildfield, thats gonna be fucking awesome!

Okay, lets go to the point..
Um.. I gained a lots from the competition..
Teamworks..(We don't even know each other..)
Friends..(A lot of seniors I get to know.. From other courses too)
Football skills..(By watching or playing with the teams from other states.)
And..
PAINS !!!



Seriously, I think my boots gonna leave soon..
This pic was taken after the last match..



Semi-final match.. I tried my super best..
But we can't managed to win.. 1st.. Due to our attacking(weak..)
2nd, they elbow-ed my teammate to score a goal.. Sux!!


Can you see ??
The juices coming out!
That match we used our full power..
But we just got not enough luck.. damn..

SBS this year got third for football..
I am happy for that..
Cause we beat Penang twice!
And for the second time was for the third and forth placing..
It was a penalty shootout..
My keeper.. was FANTASTIC! He saved all the first 3 goals and then..
We won the match straight away!
Coooool..

*Not in mood for the conclusion.. ARgh...*

LOL

Now I finally knew what was
LOL, LAUGHING OUT LOUD means since last week, tuesday(23/11/2010)

That day, I went football at my college's field
Well, we only have 10 people..
Because of rain..
But 10 people was enough tho..
We started a game, 5 vs 5 and we play ball-shooting..
Ball-shooting? Ball-shooting means we have to use the ball and shoot another ball then only we scored a point..
It was tough..
But my team scored twice..
At the moment,
The opponent started to attack us hardly..
They can't get a score.. Know why?
Cause one of my teammate keep defending but staying in front of the ball..
Even 3 opponents were there keep attacking, passing and trying to shoot the ball..
But still FAILED..

Then lastly, they finally get a scored..
By how? they were 3 opponents..
So.. one of them pushed my teammate away who was blocking the ball..
That time I was just laughing..
But then, my team was failed in an attack,
3 of the opponents had a counter-attack and I was the only one who rushing back and defend..
But I was laughing rushing back,
Cause I had a great idea in my mind,
And that was..
Sit in front the ball and surround the ball left and right with my both legs..
They used their skill again!(Pushing me away)
But failed! That attack took then around 1 minutes..
I was like keep blocking and blocking..
Then my mate was back and took the ball and cleared it away..
I was like keep laughing and laughing..
My mind was empty that time..
Cause I just keep "HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!" All the time..
Cause the opponents had a "failed" face and I can't just stop laughing on it and plus the skill I used! Plus they failed to score! Plus my teammate was laughing on me..
All of these made me like nonstop laughing out loud for 1 minute..
Then I stopped and think..
What the hell am I doing right there? Then I stood up and play again..

After that match, I felt extremely relaxing..
And I felt that my college life was fucking awesome!
The friends I playing with were working at the canteen..
They're from Myanmar and Indonesia..
I mean.. 4 of them.. Not all xP..
Felt lucky as well to know them..
Taught me a lot of stuffs, mostly were funny stuffs..
And some rude words(Myanmar) as well.. ahahx..

Time..

Well..
I just went to club with some secondary school friends..
Its been a quite long time that I didn't meet them..
For like around.. a whole year? or less than it..

Before I went to the club,
I had a birthday party..
Well, its an awesome party..
But its just too little girl attended..
We were mad on eating the barbeque fishes..
Once the fishes were done..
We all were like.. the hungerss..
After eat, we talk about ghost stories oh my god! I was afraid!!
Very statify I must say.. For the party..

I reached the club at 1.15am..
I was super late ! lolx!!
But its okay, cause I just wanna meet my best friend..
Ok.. I saw my best friend waiting me outside the club,
So, I walk through him..
The first thing we did was..
showing the center finger ! lolx~ as "hello"
So, then we went into the club and drink and bom bom shake shake..
We leave the club at around.. 2.10am..
We went to eat some foods outside the club..
We.. Um.. Me.. I started to feel kind a.. shy.. to talk to him..
So I less talk to him.. Maybe its because we were just way too long never meet..
I am now busy studying at another state.. and him..
is busy working from morning to night everyday..
What we talked.. were just "how's your recent life"..
I asked him about him and his girlfriend.. He straight away showed me a "good" sign
I was happy right after he showed me that ^^
So, after we finished the foods.. We went home..
When I walk to my car, he keep on disturbing me.. hahax.. fun thought..
So, after the fun ended.. He leaves..
What I did was just standing on the door and its raining..
Watching his car to disappeared out of my sigh..
But.. Some flashbacks were received into my mind..
Well.. I was sad.. And I keep hoping that time can goes back !
But it impossible huh..
I'll wish to have a time machine for my birthday wishes next year..
Damn..

Lucks...

21/10/2010
12.18am

20 10 2010..
After I lost the futsal competition,
I started to feel that..
If you're really got no luck..
Seriously you couldn't get what you want but disappointing feel left behind..
While on the semi-final competition just..
I tried all my best just not to let the opponent to score our goal..
I was like... Defend like mad..
All the people there were like..
"Oh man, he's totally mad!"
Even my teammates, they surposed to wait at the front
But what they did were they went back and defend and rush again.
We really well-played..
Unfortunately, they did a goal on extra time..
A goal. A goal is enough to erase our hope..
A goal is enough to send us back with nothing on our hands..
I was really disappointed after the final whistle has blown..
If I have got some luck,
How nice it would be..
Life is all about luck..
Damn...

Competition

19/10/2010 12.41am

Woah..
11hours later,
I'll be sitting in the class room,
And watching my classmates' english individual presentation
By the way, I'll record THEM muahahhaax..
But next week is gonna be my turn..
And I not even get started on my preparation !
Thats gonna be HOLY SHIT ! hohoho merry christmas too

And also,
I am having futsal competition at 5pm!
Damn.. U know what..
I have no confident at all..
I had this feeling since the evening while I am playing football on the field..
What I feel was.. Um, I am getting weak on football..
Maybe it is because of the last few days I keep on playing futsal..
And I love football very much but not futsal..
Football is freaking full of challengingsSSS!!
I became weaker because of FUTSAL..
Damn, I was like.. keep hoping the futsal competition will end quick =x
By somehow,
I'll try to get this shit out of me! and try to win the competition!
I mean.. MUST WIN!!
If not I will disappointed my teammates badly..
So, I'll defend like a mad bull.
Just like.. Nothing or nobody in the world can stop me !
V ';...;' V

Football

4/10/2010 7.42pm..

Wow, since the sem one exam started till today,
I never play football at my college..
But today, I finally went to the field and play hahax
Well..
Um..
I enjoyed the game..
With the "aluma, messi" but kfc wasn't here cause he got sick..
They work at the canteen..
Everytime I see them, sure I will disturb them for awhile hahax..
They are not from Malaysia.. One from Indon.. And other two is from Mymar..
Okay...
Well..
After the football match..
I sitted on the field and take off my shoes..
Suddenly,
I feels.. that..
Actually there was a weird feeling..
Then I sitted there and think over and over again..
Yeah.. A lot of things were missing..
Before I go for football..
After football..
Just..
Something were missing..
Even what time should I go to the field I can't even remember..
Just...That I haven't get use on it..
But..
Soon..
I will.. I guess..
So,
The conclusion is..
I had a weird feeling hehex..

Time oh time..

4th of oct 2010 1.25am

A month of time???


A month of time,
I changed a lot..
A month of time,
I think it over and over again..
A month of time,
I had figured out what should I do..
A month of time,
I just can't stop thinking..
A month of time,
I hurted myself all the time..
A month of time,
I tried to pretend it's fake feeling all the time..
A month of time,
I lived uncomfortable-ly..
A month of time,
I finally knew.. I am totally out of her world..

2nd of October 2010

2nd of October 2010 7.02am


Having a trip with my friends on 2nd of Oct..
WEll, we started our journey at 7am to genting..
2day one night trip..
First day will be going to genting,
Having a night at kl(hotel)
Second day, shopping(MALLSSS)


WEll, I just realize that..
I am spending very less time at home or with my family..
Everytime I went back to my hometown..
What I did was.. Hang out with my friends..
Last night, I fell asleep at around 7pm, on the floor
Then I woke up at around 9pm,
Friend called me and I am out..
And.. I didn't take my dinner..
My mom cooked..
After I went back home..
And I think over again..
I feel very bad on myself..
Thats the conclusion =x

Weird dayssss..

30th of September 2010

Well well..
Nowadays I felt that I always don't wanna sleep at night..
Even I am tired..
Emo..
Happy..
I mean.. No matter what mood I am having..
This is soooo weird..
Even the sun rised..
It just like..
Normal.. I didn't feel like..
HOLY SHIT!! The sun rised!! I should go to bed now..
NO.. Why.. lolx..
Weird..
If I managed to control myself..
Thats will be GREAT!
NO.. Perfect!
My mom can't even control me..
I am really a piece of shit.. Oh man..
Nooo.. A dozen of shit lolx..
And also..
I can't remember much things..
when its noon.. I tried to think about what I did just now(midnight, morning)
But ends up without a thing in my mind..
HOly dozensss of shit!~
Toooooooo weird..
I hope I can just kick off this stupid habit of not sleeping.. damn..

First year semester 2

29th of September 2010 2.19am

After having 3 nights at my college life..
I found out there's nothing special..
Um, actually there was some weird feeling..
Just..
Some laughs.. some smiles.. some jokess.. some storys..
were missing..
But life goes on, I must get use on it then..

Sem two is actually .. um..
Good and bad? hahax..
Good
=> only study from Monday to Thursday..
So, I can go back to my hometown every Thursday's night
And, everyday my classes ended before 5.30pm like that..
so, I can go for football every evening HUhuuhu
Bad?
=> Thursday is full of shit that I have 4 classes for that day, from 8am to 5.30pm
If there's 4 presentation on that day..
I can be.. DEAD lolx..

Time is faster than lightning bolt ?

26/9/2010 6.11am


3 weeks of time just passed like this..
Damn.. I am going back to my college tomorrow(Kuala Lumpur)
Going to start sem2 for the next Monday..
I felt nervous and worries on my sem2..
I don't know why...
Maybe because a lot of things that I do on sem 1 shall not be repeated on sem2..
Examples?
um.. before going to football.. before going to sleep.. or before doing something important or special..hehex..
So it is very stranger to me..
And.. What am I going to do on sem 2 was..
To show those girls in the hostel something and make then never say "guy's room is just same as like in a hell"
I will keep my room clean and clear.. hahax..
I knew I can handle all the things by myself..
Because I am Chin Jun Yeng haahx..(My mom can't even handle me, how can I handle them myself? Shiit =x)
Am I ready for my sem 2???
Yea! I suree ee do..
I downloaded 137 movies.. HAHAHAX..
I was mad.. But every sem was a war..



Well well well..
I enjoyed my 3 weeks of time at my hometown nicely..
I met a lot of my friends.. But mostly I met my football friends..
Because..
NO FOOTBALL NO LIFE hahax xP
In 3 weeks of time.. I just ate fried chicken once that cooked by my mom..
And she went to China for my last week at my hometown.. Thats soo suck..
In 3 weeks of time..
I had forgotten a lot of things..
Why? Um, because of late sleep ? Late sleep may cause you having memories lost..
Damn.. thats suck..
When my friends talking about something past.. I was like..
Keep thinking and thinking..
But I still can't remember a thing.. DAMn..
In 3 weeks of time..
I started to play back "dota" and "runescape"
And guys.. Please don't try them..
These are the lifeless game ever..
Once you starts to play.. You need to play atleast an hour only you willing to STOP..
Hahax.. shit games..
So, what will I miss?
I'll miss my bed.. my carss.. my mom(more fried chicken pleaseee).. my younger bro(all the best for you pmr..).. my "copy"(my dog).. my desktop.. my toilet.. football field.. TC(beach).. Burgersss(saffron)... friendssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss...
I guess thats all..
Since I am having memories lost..
I can't think nicely for this blog..
ahhahax..
I apologize for that =x

Brand new me?

I yahx..
I guess I am gonna change my attitude..
My attitude sometime is quite fucked up..
All because of my mouth..
I think I'll go for a polite mode..
Hope that it will be a better choice..


And I think I gonna change to a less active guy..
Since I feels that I talked too much..
Making people got annoyed..
But this case happens less..
Because I can cocky with almost all the girls and boys..
So,
I just hope my plan success..
So that I don't really need to change so much..

24th of September 2010

Time.. 1.11pm..
Um, now my feeling is totally downed..
Just took my lunch,
and things happened..
I wish I can talk to someone..
That really care about me..
That can talk about everything without feeling shameful or shy or others(negative)..
That really important to me..
That I really trust ..
But so far, I only found ONE..
And.. I just can't.. Argh..
Never mind..
Just .. too complicated..
Its about my dad,
And I can almost got hit
and die? since he was so mean-ed..
Life suck..
But I will never gave up to become a better man.. dad and.. husband..

Being a bad man ?

All the girls always saying that "all the man are bad and there ain't any good man in the world !"
Well , no..
There's some good man..
Just that they have no fate/destiny to meet any of them..
However,
Even if they met any of them and have a very good love relationship
The girl found out that there's a problem..
"what problem?"
A "guilty" feeling..
She will feel sorry to him..
She will feel that she hurt him a lots..
She will feel that she never know how to appreciate love..
Then, what to do?
Stop the relationship..
Cause it may stop feeling sorry to him..
or stop feeling that she hurting him..


So..
Um, being a good man is not the best as u think.. U still can't what u wanted..
How about being a bad man?
maybe it's better ..
Since being a good man can't really get loved..
And being a bad man,
I guess the girl will never feels
Guilty..
Just a word, "guilty"
Can make a big different..
I always wondering how wonderful the love and world would be if "guilty" will never exist...

21st of September 2010

Well,

For 21st of Sept's night,

It was my first time that I slept with airconded and a dark room for the 3 weeks time at my hometown!

"Huh? what u mean?"

Um, I went to bed at 5am(22nd) so, the sun still haven't rise and..

I only will switch on the air cond to sleep if the sun not yet rise..

Wow?

I guess I am back to business! The real life

However!

After I woke up, around 1 or 2pm.. I felt that I am extremely tired..

I don't know why, but I believe that soon I'll be okay with it..

Still blur with this blog huh?

Ok, lets just straight to the point

The conclusion was..

I

Am

On

My

Way

Back
To

Me

Zombie?

21st of September 2010
Morning..
My mom will be having a flight to china on tmr 6am..
So, 21st's morning..
She can't stand me anymore,
She asked me to go to bed.. But I didn't answer her
But then.. She said that.. I am like a "keong xi"(zombie)

This is "keong xi", chinese's zombie


Actual zombie xP


This is me, took it by last week. I put this cause I feels this pic I really look abit "zombie" lolx.


By anyhow.. The zombie and my photo really have a big different right??
Anyway, I'll admit I am kinda zombie look now..
My eyes below.. The bag of my eyes so dark.. I think got around 2cm..

I guess, I am going to change my bad habit from now on..
I'll try to sleep earlier..
No more up side down life..
Cause school going to start next week. <3
Hope I can do it,
In order to...

Back to the true and real me

Suck life ?

Um.. God damn it?

It is hard to know what we really want from our life sometime..
Even you thought that you are having a big and nice target.
But still you don't really know what you really want..

Well, when you feeling sad , happy, or any feeling that you having that was negative or positive..
The earth will never stop rotating..
Means the time is moving..
By every second, you can gain something, or loses something or nothing..
My friend said before that, "The last day of our freedom is the day before we born."
Arghh.. So, I guess we just move on our life.
Cause problems/troubles never stop coming to you..
We shouldn't run or hide.
Just solve them or it with a positive way..
Cause there's always gonna be a better way.
Search it and use it well.

Dead meat

Well,
This is a continue story after the previous one,
15th of September 2010.
I was still awake at 10am.
So, I went to market with mom.. To buy some fishes and somethings like that..
After that we went for breakfast.. Wow..
Till 12pm we went back home.
AND! I didn't went for bed but RUNESCAPE!
Holy shit... I just keep only playing and playing till almost 3pm.
So I quickly went to back and go for bed.
Till 6pm and go for my "simple life" again.

Night time reached..
I went for a movie with friend then went to the beach..
So after that, I went to my football friends to watch a football match but they didn't tell me about going for sunrise at beach at 6am.. SHIT
So after the football match we went to the beach and
After that went for the popular currymee nearby ..
The time now is 8.42am..
So.. I am so damn fucking blur..
And..
Conclusion was..
I can't remember what day is today!
Holy shit..
I thought now was Wednesday.. :(
Dead sooooooooooon

15th of September 2010

A day that I wasted 2 hours for a goal-less match..
Manchester United vs Ranger, start at 2.45am
Its 0-0 full time.. I felt soo bored to watch Man Utd now..
They are good but their spirit is just not too high.. :(
And.. Antony Valencia has broken his ankle.. OUCH ! during the match.. DAmn.. he's my one of my fav ! argh... Serious injury that will brought him a whole season to recover!
Oh yahx..
Um.. During half time.. I went to the kitchen and made my dinner again..
4 pack of maggies , 5 hotdogs , 1 egg ! wahahha.. This is maddd~~
And before the match I ate icecreams plus some chocolate biscuit.. Holy shit dude!!! Super sweettttt~

So.. Last thing .. Um.. Now I knew.. That I can..
play.. Fifa together with runescape! Oh my gosh.....
THis is not super sweet anymore ..
But..


Extremely sweeet!!!

xP The end.

14th of September 2010

Nothing special..

Cause I don't know what to put for the topic xP..

Well.. Since after finish my exam for my first year first sem examination

So, I went back to my hometown, kuantan..

And then !

Life here is sooo.... simple and .. funny?

My life here, is up side down .

People sleep..

But my eyes open..

People open their eyes, *awake*

But it's my time to go to bed.

Okay, here goes my life..

Everyday, I woke up at .. around.. 3 to 6p.m.

Then, I go for football at 6pm, means that I didn't bath..

But I did brush my teeth.. so.. after that then I quickly go to the field..

Finish the footballing at 7.30pm.. Then went home..

Automatically I'll went to upstair and sit infront of my computer.

Then I starts to play game.. FIFA 09 , facebook-ing and mp3-ing..

But since a few days ago I just found out a game, Runescape.. I knew it was old..

But.. it's private! hahax... So everytime I went back home after football,

I'll runescape-ing.. until 10pm ! I mean.. at most 10pm.. I go for bath..

Almost everyday.. I will hang out with friends.. between 10pm and 5am..

So.. After hang out , I went back home then I starts to play my game again..
Till 4am.. I will become a "Food-searcher"

Went downstair and keep searching for foods to eat.. But mostly I'll just cook mee and eat..

So, after that I continue runescape-ing till 8-11am..

Funny huh?

My mom was keep scolding me..

Just like...

Come on ! Just go to bed..

You have ur time.. 3 weeks !

After sleep, you can just go and play the runescape again..

I was like.. whoaa.. thats right.. But I never did once before.. =x

Ohh yah... last one..

Um, you know how's my lifestyle now huh..

Not really?

Okay.. Let me make it clean then..

Normally,

Dinner.. is equal to my lunch..*After football , went back and eat.*

And
Supper.. is equal to my dinner.. *Around 4am*

AND !

Breakfast is equal to my supper ! * I drank a cup of hot milo before I gone to bed*

This is actually very not good..
But.. no choice.. argh.. I can't control myself..

That is it..

The end.. xP..

*weird blog*

No tittle

From 28th of November 2009 (During SPM)

Ops, actually that day was 27th, but it's 27th's midnight.. So considered as 28th.

27th was Friday..

Ops again, this tittle is a.. love story. But the story ended.. peacefully .. silently.. unexpectedly and .. sadfully.

Okay, lets go now.

27th of November 2009.

That day I had futsal during night. So I finished it around.. 12am plus (28th of Nov already !)

Okay, then I was too tired and the laziness came to me..

So I went to my computer and started to waste my time on online-ing and.. FIFA 09 -ing

hahax..

Um, but then.. Suddenly !!

My phone rang.

A message received..

What message was that!??!

A forwarded message.

28-Nov-2009 0145

bla bla

bla bla

"good nite & hv a sweet dream"

A good night greet huh.

I was like got shocked that it's already midnight.

So I started to reply her around 10minutes later.

Its been a long time like around 2months that I never send any msg by my phone.

So, the love story started from that moment.

She is a girl that having a good behavior all the time. extremely discipline and .. cute+lovely

We get to know each other since 2008 and mid year.

It is kinda "destiny" that I met her.

If I don't get a good result for my PMR result.

I couldn't get into the science scene class and get to meet her.

But I did it. Hohohoho..

Lets go back then.

Um.. So, our relationship keep improving from that moment..

I keep concern, console and supports to her to get in mood and study for the SPM exam.

Then.. After SPM.. My dad.. got sick badly and went to hospital..

There was a lot of not so happy things happened..

But I managed myself to stood up because I had her concern , console and support too!

So.. Our relationship was keep improve and improve

I started to work at GSC, Golden Screen Cinema. To earn some money before going to college.

So, at 11st of January 2010.

The day, when our really love relationship started.

A date with her.. to the mall. wow!

haha.. I was seriously shy actually! but I managed myself not to show it off.

She reached the mall while I went to buy a waffle for her. Chocolate kaya or chocolate strawberry flavor. I had forgotten. OH MY GOSH!

So, we went for movie, the first movie with her ever!

Movie : Old dogs.

Time : 6.10pm or 5.10pm or 4plus If no mistaken..

A twins seated ! hahax.. But the ticket was kept by her. So I don't know the ticket was still around or not.. I hope it's still around because that ticket was a superb memorable ones to us.

But that day, she was tired.. So she slept ! oh shit.. So I just hugged her to give her more comfort to sleep.

The day ended.. Got hugs and hold-ed her hand. thats all..

So, our relationship get more improvement..

Until..

19th of March

Friday again.. lolx..

I got my off day.

So she and I were having dinner at Crocodile rocks.

Had my mix grills while she had her spragetti.

An enjoyable night but when we leave.

Things go bad.

She asked me if found any other nicer girl or what..

You can go for her anytime..

I was got shocked cause it was too sudden and too unexpected.

So I was keep trying my best to make things right.

But just part of it settled.

Then we left.

And then the problem came again but not in real. by message.

lolx.. I was extremely emo that time..

Days passed slowly and sadly till 29th of march

The day that she was going to Nasional service(A camp for 3 months training)

I was late. and her bus almost got away.. But hopefully!

I brought her um.. 2 pack of tissue papers. a funny cow stuff.. two umm.. kinda farewell cards.. but it was not.. I think I better use love cards. There was pictures inside it. and also I brought her a bottle of water that I made it by myself. Because she got sore throat .

So.. She took it.. and gave me a lovely hug.. and then.. she.. gone.. Then I went for work. I was soo down.. Till I can't stand it and went to toilet and cried.. Damn.. What a shame!

Every Saturdays(around 6pm+ Phone releasing) and Sundays(around 9pm+ Phone keeping)

I'll definitely call her . All the laughs.. things.. I can still remember.. Cause.. It was too wonderful.. How on earth, can I stop remembering it ?

Till 1st of May, our next meet. She got 4 days holidays.

So we went for dinner.. Buffet. Before that she went to my house.. Wow.. I never prepare.. But there was no any secret or uncensored things for her to know or see in my room or my house. No big deal.. I just went for bath and have some sweet talks and then we went out for dinner.. She was tired since she went out for the whole day.. She slept in the car so I drove to a lovely place and stopped there and let her sleep. But she woke up for a few minutes later then we continued to the 5 star hotel. Had a wonderful and enjoyable dinner , seafood buffet.. She has been a quite long time not having seafood already.. The looks.. the faces.. the expressions.. of her.. I can still remember.. It was way too funny.. But.. I love it so much .. Day ended happily..

2nd of May.

She went back to the camp.. Arghh gosh.. have to wait 1 and a half month !

By that time, we just sms and called her regularly on Sats and Sundays..

While I stopped my work since 28th of April , the last day. Then I went for college at 10th of May..

28th of May. My birthday.. Actually.. I dreamed.. That she had got her phone and called me for a surprise birthday wish. That day was Friday and she will never gonna get her phone.. But suddenly.. Things go so.. true-ly . She called me and wished me.. because of the next day she gonna have an event.. So got the phone.. wow.. Although she can't celebrate it with me.. But I am still extremely happy ! x))

Days passed by.. till..

12nd of June.

She was back after the 3 months of service..

I went the place where the bus dropped them..

I waited her.. She went down.. I was actually wanna hug her so much, but I was shy to do so..

When the bus's door opened. The first one who I saw was her.. wow! hahax.. She went down and went to me..

She was um.. became so rough and strong..

But thats okay for me.. Cause I like it hahax..

30th of June. Her birthday.

I was having my test that day.. But I still managed to go back to my hometown to meet her..

I was thinking to give her a surprise..

But ! She was sad about her birthday that her family did not keep the promise..

She was so down !

My heart was soft..

And quickly called her..

Console her..

Telling her I was at the hometown and told her about all my procedure/way to surprise her..

She was like .. got shocked.. but then .. she was happy ahahax.. and then I was happy too..

But too bad can't gave her surprise if not she can fly without wings. xP

So, days passed by.. Happily.. quickly(Happy time will always passed faster..)..

26th of July, the day she started her college life.

7th of August , met her at her college.

Till around 20th of Aug..

I felt that she changed..
But it was okay for me as I knew that it will be happened.

Day passed weird and weird.. Unnaturally .. I was trying to follow the way she is now..

But it is hopeless to do so as today.. she finally told me the true about the way she thinks..

Um, I can't do anything.. I don't like to force people..

So I just.. allowed her..

She having her college life happily and enjoyed everyday..

So I shouldn't show her anythings that is negative..

This is for her to go on her life happily..

So, now..

I am just like a flightless bird..

It's very hurt on my wound..

But soon.. I'll recover..

Then I'll fly back..

So, this proved.. As time passed.. things really changed.. face the fact.. solve them positively

If really no solution, just put one foot in front of the other.

We move just like we ain't got no other.

She yah.. um.. the one who really let me believe in true love..

The one who brighter my life in previous..

But seems like our spirit is too weak..

And I .. am powerless..

I don't have the strength to overcome things..

Distance is really a problem.. But I already gave my best on keep trying without giving up.

Till today.. I finally gave up.. not because I am not trying but I have no right for it anymore.

I am happy for my college life.

around 4 months already,

I always wondering.. Did I changes? or changed?

This one I am not sure of.

The only thing I am sure of was my love on her never changed.

Why oh why.. Argh..

By here,

Wishing you,

All the best in the future..

Just hope none of the negative things happens on you.

May my spirit be with you.

I really.. really... and .. really appreciated the love you produced.

It's too hard, too difficult till I got no idea on describing how wonderful is it..

Tonight, I'll admit..

I've no longer to save my last breathe to show what love really can do.

I'll admit..

I'll miss you a lots.

I'll admit..

I've no longer and have no right to jealous on you.

I'll admit..

I never thinks about having or anything of another girl.

And..

I'll admit,

Tonight will be the night that I returns your heart back to you..

Sorry for keeping it for more than half year..

Appreciated it so much.. Thanks

Ying love Yeng is no longer exist.